“With great power comes great responsibility”- Uncle Ben
Last time I shared my last hours with my dad. How finally acknowledging the truth set us both free. I was free to face reality. This allowed me to make sure all was said. All that should and needed to be said. All that allowed me to free myself. Free myself of any guilt, questions, fears…Free myself of anything I might later regret, and leaving nothing unsaid or undone. In doing so I freed my dad as well.
His time here had come to and end. A job well done. Earning the freedom to move on. To escape the confines of his physical restraints in this life. Who am I to decide it’s not his time? I am just his son who selfishly wants him to stay. But what is a son without a father, after all?
A good son is one who confirms a job well done. Let’s him know, “I’m OK, your job is done, I’ll take it from here”
Having those thoughts, speaking those words, creates a whole new level of reality. A reality, that in a matter of moments I had become the patriarch of our little clan.
As I write this, I have been married for almost two decades. I have been a father for over sixteen years. So, being in that type of role isn’t new. It’s the shock that my role as a father’s son, My position as the second in command has been terminated. I have now become the eldest male in our family. I have gone from the baby to the oldest male as my father took his last breath.
I must now take the reins and carry the torch. I must now guide through darkness and light. Whether I am scared or not. Whether I believe I can or not. Whether I want to or not. I now have a responsibility. I have a new role. I have been promoted to a new position. I have inherited the throne!
As it is said, with great power comes great responsibility. Suddenly, the responsibility seems overwhelming. How can I follow in his footsteps? Those are big shoes to fill. Literally, I went through his closet, they don’t fit! They are too big. Is this too big? What am I to do? Where do I go from here? What exactly is my role? What exactly is my responsibility? What exactly did my father do as the eldest male?
I have some thinking to do…..
Talk Soon,
Kevin W @LEAP272
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